Being at the Cancer Center

I met a lady here at the cancer center.. She started talking to me and we were chatting for a long time...

She was diagnosed with cancer 10 years ago. She started with a tumor in her neck, then cancer moved to her ribs, and then to her hips, after that to her lungs, and now is everywhere. She has the same doctor that Andy has, but her case is a little worse than any others.
She had an appointment few weeks ago and the Dr told her that her cancer has no cure, pretty much the doctor told her that she is going to die. I was shocked when she was telling me all this. She wasn't crying, she wasn't sad or nothing, she was just telling me with such a happy calm voice and a peaceful look. I asked her, "so how are you doing with this news? What do you think? What are you going to do?" And she said, "My love I am going to live every single day that god is giving me. I am not going to waste these beautiful days crying or asking why this is a happening to me. I am going to exercise and have fun with my husband and my kids. I am going to enjoy the air, the flowers, the good. I don't know when I will leave this earth but I will leave it happy and peaceful knowing that I lived every single second with happiness."
Wow! I was speechless. I didn't know what to say or anything. She gave me a hug and said... "This thing that you are doing with your husband, coming here with him every day, bringing him food, talking to him, covering with blankets and all this, this means a lot to him but I want you to know that it means even more for God."
What an amazing opportunity to meet people that know that they are going to leave soon and have so much knowledge to share. She was telling me all about nutrition and food; she is vegan. She became vegan and she swears that this is why she is here still... I know it sounds crazy but I am considering becoming a vegetarian, just like my mom and dad.

I was a vegetarian for imposition for about 18 years of my life. My parents made me and my brother and sister eat vegetarian food for all those years, I hated it. And as soon as I moved out to go to college, I started eating a lot of junk food.

Now that I have kids, I started eating better, but never vegetarian. Well, maybe this is the moment to go back to that. Probably not right now because I do not have time to cook or anything, but I am really considering to make a big change in my eating habits for me and my kids, now I understand why my parents did that to us.
I also met another lady here, her breast cancer is stage 4, it is everywhere, too, but she has not supported at all. She lost her job, her boyfriend left her, her family is ignoring her. She has a 13 year old and a 5 year old. She was crying telling me how hard life is for her. She said she is under depression, she doesn't want to eat. Her house is a mess. She is going to have to move out because she has no money. No one is helping her. I just can't imagine that. She says she drives her self to chemotherapy, and then she has to go pick her daughter up from school. I asked her how she does it. Seriously, cancer patients after chemo, are so tired. They have so much drugs in their system. There is no way driving can be safe. She said she has no choice, she has no help. She just wants to die. Once again, wow how bless Andy and me are to have all this help, all this love, all this people that care about us, family, friends, community, church, everyone, I just can't imagine us going through a situation like this with no support .
I told this lady, "Listen, I know and understand what you are going through, we are living in a situation similar to yours, but you need to do just one thing, find the way to find your Heavenly Father. Find the way to get closer to God, and I promise you, he will give you what you need. I promise you, he won't leave you like everyone else is."
We are almost half way with round two. This time has been harder than the last time. Andy is feeling worse than week one, but we are half way there. Two more rounds and we can start making a plan for whatever is next.

I never imagined to be in a situation like this, but if you know someone that is living this, has cancer or someone in their family does, please find the way to get closer to them, to show them love, to just tell them I am here if you want to cry. I see it here every day, people don't take this si ratio as good as Andy is taking it, people go crazy and most of them can't think positive and I am sure a little extra touch of love will mean the world to them.

Sometimes I think I should stop talking to other patients, because I want to help them, and I feel to involved and it hurts me to see them feeling this way. But, at the same time I love this opportunity to grow, to hear and learn that the problems that I used to have or think that I had were pointless and not important at all. The important thing on earth, and the only thing is to remember, is why we are here, the purpose of life, and us being here on earth, and just be grateful for the chance to be here.
 I love this guy I enjoy every second that I get to spend with him and I can't wait until tomorrow... last day of round 2!!!!!!!!!